年初二。

年初二的今天，我一样的去到外婆家。但是，我开始感觉到以前的年初二和今年真的很大的分别！年初二只只有两位舅舅的家人在，我的阿姨全部都没回来。我的家人一个一个就这样离开，剩下的却为离开的挂念。今天，我才知道原来外婆很心痛我姨丈去世的事实。包括我也无法在短短的时间内接受到，因为真的太突然了。而且，姨丈的案件都还没解决好。看着家人一个一个离开，就开始感觉到那个家不像以前那么日闹了。我真的很想念以前新年的气氛~ 还能回去吗？我在想如果有一天外婆也一样离开了，新年所有的人就不会再回来相聚了。因为大家都有各自的家了。

年初一。

年初一来咯！今天早上很早就计划了要去找外婆。非常想念我的外婆~ 之前都不敢去找我外婆，但是这次真的想好了就直接决定好去找外婆。到了外婆家，我第一个时间抱着我的外婆。我感觉到外婆非常的高兴！因为她非常久没有见到我了。很久没有吃外婆煮的饭，没有想到我年初一的早餐就能和小舅一家一起吃到外婆煮的饭。吃饱饭后，和外婆聊天。这次真的和外婆聊了很多~ 我忽然感觉很亏欠。原来外婆都有在算我多久没去找她了。外婆还记得是08年已经没有见到我了。外婆知道我很难做，但是我还是觉得我应该坚持去找她。这次会回去是因为，我开始很怕我再也不够时间和外婆一起，我害怕我再也没有这个机会，因为我没有去争取。多年来设定的目标，我今天终于实现了。看见外婆年纪越来越大，开始越来越驼背加上没有一点那么有力气了。我的心告诉我要多陪我的外婆。就算让我家人知道我去找我外婆，我觉得我不会再害怕什么了。因为我知道，我自己做了对的事情。到了晚上，我就和小舅一家上了云顶走一趟。真的好冷哦！！没有想到我和小舅同一个时间就去喝我们最爱的咖啡。哈哈！！我会喝咖啡也是因为我小舅叫我的。今天我们可以在云顶一起咖啡聊天。真的棒极了！从小我就很喜欢和我的两位舅舅聊天，因为他们给了我很多的知识。我们就这样聊到凌晨两点才回家。

除夕夜~

除夕夜的今天，刚好星期天。我一样的早上起来，预备好去教会聚会。今天的机会很特别，人数很特别，讲道很特别，更特别的是我们的崇拜时间更短了。哈哈！很久没有试过那么早散会。散会后，每个人忙着回各自的家。而我依然留在KL~因为我的家乡依然在KL。有得回家乡的感觉真的很好，觉得更加有新年的气氛。反而在KL的我，感觉到和平常一样，只是不同的是，有红包拿，有新年并吃。我们的团圆饭也是没有特别安排去那里吃，也是很临时一家一家酒楼去的。到最后，去到我公司附近一间酒楼吃。吃饱了，就回家等待我的小舅和舅母回来KL。从小就很期待小舅每一年回来！！因为小舅会带很多日本的饼干，零食，还有日本酒给我。真的太兴奋了！！今年更多带了一个小baby回来。忽然接受不到我就这样成为了三个小孩的表姨。哈哈！！接受不到真个称呼。非常开始看见小舅一间，真的很开心。

你爱我吗？

飞到哪里都想着你
身与心分隔两地
我们爱情的距离 是否又重新适应
大部分的心情 怎么都缅怀过去
好几次雨过又天晴的期待都不灵
你爱我吗 你快乐吗
请给我个能结束今夜的回答
明天不爱 就留给明天
我只能这么想
你爱我吗？ 会快乐吗？
还需要什么回到最初的愿望
能再一次 毫无条件的去爱吧

你爱我吗？ 会快乐吗？
还需要什么回到最初的愿望
能再一次 毫无条件的去爱吧

还能许什么回到最初的愿望
蜡烛一吹 融化的就只有哀伤
蜡烛一吹 你会不会给我回答

Nasi Lemak2.0

等了好久，我终于能够去看这部戏了！哈哈~首先，我非常感谢家人的陪伴一起去看这部戏。特别要感谢二姨丈帮我们订票，还有二姨的笑声。真的棒极了！！这部戏真的很多好笑的画面，但是也有不好的一面。这部戏完全带出了我们国家的文化。看得出，戏里所有的演员都很爱过，而且都看得出有一个马来西亚的文化。

我们都常说，珍惜身边每一个人，事，物。虽然，着一些对我们来说非常的重要~但，当你开始失去一些对你重要的东西后，你就会感受到也学习到“珍惜”这个字。家人对我们来说，是很我们很重要的人物，家人之间彼此的关怀，扶持着对方。星期四下午，忽然接到舅舅的电话说~我的姨丈去世了。当我听到这个消息时，我真的很惊讶！甚至我也不敢相信这个消息。其实，正式的来说只从我长大开始工作后，我一年只和他见一次面。还记得小时候的我每次帮他捶背，长大后就完全没好好和他一起，反而住在那么靠近的我们~我却一年才见几次面。我们都很难接受姨丈的离开，因为他是被别人打伤头部，头部严重受伤而去世的。大家不都不知道真实的事情发生是如何？是意外？是人为？还是其他的原因？我不知道自己可以为姨丈做什么事情？但，我只盼望能够找到事情的真相。这个事情深深的影响我这两天的心情，不管我做什么我都会想到姨丈的事。今天的敬拜练习当中，我依然还想着姨丈的事。我忽然感到自己很软弱，很无助。因为我还没有办法把福音带给家人。今天的敬拜练习我真的感觉到自己很累，加上我不知要和谁说出自己心里面的一些话？到最后我依然把今天的练习交托给神！我在心里一直的祷告，求神带领我。让我从新回来，回到神的怀抱里，不在靠自己的能力走下去。

Love

What is love? It is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind. Centuries have passed by, relationships have bloomed and so has love. But no one can give the proper definition of love. To some Love is friendship set on fire for others Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it. No matter how you define it or feel it, love is the eternal truth in the history of mankind.

Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life. Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it. It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true.

Love can occur between two or more individuals. It bonds them and connects them in a unified link of trust, intimacy and interdependence. It enhances the relationship and comforts the soul. Love should be experienced and not just felt. The depth of love can not be measured. Look at the relationship between a mother and a child. The mother loves the child unconditionally and it can not be measured at all. A different dimension can be attained between any relationships with the magic of love. Love can be created. You just need to focus on the goodness of the other person. If this can be done easily, then you can also love easily. And remember we all have some positive aspect in us, no matter how bad our deeds maybe. And as God said Love all

Depending on context, love can be of different varieties. Romantic love is a deep, intense and unending. It shared on a very intimate and interpersonal and sexual relationship. The term Platonic love, familial love and religious love are also matter of great affection. It is more of desire, preference and feelings. The meaning of love will change with each different relationship and depends more on its concept of depth, versatility, and complexity. But at times the very existence of love is questioned. Some say it is false and meaningless. It says that it never exist, because there has been many instances of hatred and brutality in relationships. The history of our world has witnessed many such events. There has been hatred between brothers, parents and children, sibling rivalry and spouses have failed each other. Friends have betrayed each other; the son has killed his parents for the throne, the count is endless. Even the modern generation is also facing with such dilemmas everyday. But love is not responsible for that. It is us, the people, who have forgotten the meaning of love and have undertaken such gruesome apathy.

In the past the study of philosophy and religion has done many speculations on the phenomenon of love. But love has always ruled, in music, poetry, paintings, sculptor and literature. Psychology has also done lot of dissection to the essence of love, just like what biology, anthropology and neuroscience has also done to it.

Psychology portrays love as a cognitive phenomenon with a social cause. It is said to have three components in the book of psychology: Intimacy, Commitment, and Passion. Also, in an ancient proverb love is defined as a high form of tolerance. And this view has been accepted and advocated by both philosophers and scholars. Love also includes compatibility. But it is more of journey to the unknown when the concept of compatibility comes into picture. Maybe the person whom we see in front of us, may be least compatible than the person who is miles away. We might talk to each other and portray that we love each other, but practically we do not end up into any relationship. Also in compatibility, the key is to think about the long term successful relationship, not a short journey. We need to understand each other and must always remember that no body is perfect.

Be together, share your joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need. And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection

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